Forever Lost

@kohai-kun Thanks OMM When my grandpa was like thirteen, he knew so many languages it was insane. So I figure it shouldn't actually be that difficult to learn just more than I already speak. Japanese isnt that hard..

*waves* Welcome Thanks for being a part of subbing groups.. it makes my life a little easier ^^;; (Or it did.. idkanymore) Nice intro I'll be 20 in October o.o''' hand-drawing is the bane of my existance

Dear ... Whoever you would consider yourself, I think you don't understand. 'Cause the thing is, I'm super proud of you for at least taking two seconds to care about me. And you know, I used to not think like that. Like it mattered if people cared about me. As long as you had someone to run to. But after this never-ending cycle has run its course once again, I can't do this. I'm not God. I'm not your paid counselor. I TRIED BEING YOUR FRIEND. But I wasn't good enough. Like always. But lo and behold, somehow I'm good enough when you have problems you can't spill to anyone else. It makes me so sick sometimes!! You tell me things that HAPPENED TO ME with YOU and I am not stupid enough not to see it and it starts hurting. Because I valued you as a person. And you never have. Stupid younger me put so much investment in your stupid opinion that it hurts sometimes. How can you not even notice that?? How can you be in the same place and not even UNDERSTAND? That's all I'd ask. Just acknowledge that and I think I'd bear this with ease. But you sit here and tell me that my opinions are stupid and not good enough. You treat me like crap and you friggen KNOW that I'll be there no matter what. So you do as you please. You've learned I don't respond when you act like a butthole so now you coat it over with some fake concern and then five hours later you're done dumping on me. But if I tell you anything in response you shut me down. So here's the deal. You treat me like a friend, and we can talk. Sincerely, ME. P.S., don't use my full name to address me unless if you can handle being friends with me. That means you have to be there for me, too. Even when you don't like what I believe.

Getting sick of treading carefully with... everyone. I can never relax. Everyone seems to come towards me with a harmless, maybe even kind, comment. And the second I'm disarmed, they're all BAM! If I can only manage to rid myself of emotion, it'll all be well

Funimation, in general, doesn't suck. After all, I prefer their dub of Full Metal Panic! to the actual Japanese. Sousuke's voice, man.. But someone died and let an idiot make the big decisions somewhere between Japan and whatever was aired in America. I'm mean. It's just like... somehow they never got the feel of it or something. Although I've been scanning everyone's responses to this, I will disagree about Kogoro. I think their version of Kogoro is about as spot-on as an English dub can possibly be. I hate the Jimmy thing. I just... why Jimmy. WHY. JIMMY. Sorry, Uncle Jimmy. I just feel that the name has passed it's age. Is that possible? Idk, it just vaguely reminds me of things like Gertrude. Or .. something you call a kid when they're a kid and then you call them their actual full name as they get older..? It just makes it hard for me to take him seriously. ((Harley?!?! We're not even going to start with the many names they've made up for Haibara..)) Conan's voice makes me cringe and Ran sounds almost unfriendly. If you watch it long enough, everyone sounds reasonable with the exception of Conan, for me, that is. But what I cannot stand is how they just decided that "Harley" knows about the Organization just to create unnecessary suspense. It jacks up the entire plot. And since it makes no sense, they just opt to ignore it? Like 'eh, no one will notice :D' I never really watched past that so I can't really point anything else out... >.> Japanese all the way, man. What does it mean?!

Great. I feel like writing. This is usually a bad sign. And of course it would be when I have the most stuff that I should be doing.. instead of nothing. Or random, pointless things.

XDD How nice~

Good for you, kohai-kun. But at least he bought me food yesterday even when we shouldn't be eating out... blessingoracurse. >.>''

>.> Now I want M&M's again. And my husband will kill me if I go buy some. He says I eat too much candy >3>'''

Probably because someone who isn't trusting is more willing to deem everything a lie, and is unable to trust enough that you would tell the truth to determine which is which. Just a guess, though.

Nice to meet you XD I've been here for... too long XD And 300 is an accomplishment! Until you realize that you're less than halfway... I hope you enjoy your time here

<.< Yeah... I've seen tons of people who do that through my old age years.. XD

People have one of two options when it comes to the internet... Believe every word someone says as absolute truth Or to take everything with more than just a grain of salt and assume it a harmless lie.

There was like... one other person on here who is from my original descent... My grandfather and great grandmother came directly from there.. And there's like, three people who live rather close to where I live, but no one else seems to live where I do.... Unless you're counting America overall :D''

Lol! "Listen to our podcast!" "Your my kohai, I'm your senpai." "No, I'm your senpai and your my kohai." -five hours later- "And that's the end of our podcast!"

Yeah, but they weren't podcasts here ^^; The podcasts here are pretty awesome Your senpai, you mean. And I don't know how we would unless we did a skype-like thing while recording... or use what other people use but I'm not skilled in that area ^^; Plus, it seems we don't agree on things to make a podcast about XD;

I sounded like a kid.. and I was 16 yrs old in Dec 2010 o.o" people tend to sound younger in recordings. Although a friend of mine who did a podcast for me was like two years younger and sounded like she was ten..

*runs into wall* ... ow... Hey, now that I'm listening to this old podcast, I feel so old~ My last one was in 2010.. my voice sounds so young T.T And I'm talking about how my niece was born.. she's almost four now T.T Nostalgia~

Me too XDD

I guess no one has witty stuff on their mind anymore o.o

Yeah, I've been back to writing again recently. I'm working on a chapter for Hearing Silence although I've updated Who I Am and added a oneshot somewhere in there (all are DC, Ai-centric, but you know me ). I also have like.. a chapter for a non-fanfiction story out there on fictionpress... People would love a come back, :DD

So much easier XD Random P.S., I'm working on a dramatic chapter of one of my fanfics~ And it's supposed to be all deeply emotional but I'm just so happy that it's hard to write it XD