Forever Lost

Dear ... Whoever you would consider yourself, I think you don't understand. 'Cause the thing is, I'm super proud of you for at least taking two seconds to care about me. And you know, I used to not think like that. Like it mattered if people cared about me. As long as you had someone to run to. But after this never-ending cycle has run its course once again, I can't do this. I'm not God. I'm not your paid counselor. I TRIED BEING YOUR FRIEND. But I wasn't good enough. Like always. But lo and behold, somehow I'm good enough when you have problems you can't spill to anyone else. It makes me so sick sometimes!! You tell me things that HAPPENED TO ME with YOU and I am not stupid enough not to see it and it starts hurting. Because I valued you as a person. And you never have. Stupid younger me put so much investment in your stupid opinion that it hurts sometimes. How can you not even notice that?? How can you be in the same place and not even UNDERSTAND? That's all I'd ask. Just acknowledge that and I think I'd bear this with ease. But you sit here and tell me that my opinions are stupid and not good enough. You treat me like crap and you friggen KNOW that I'll be there no matter what. So you do as you please. You've learned I don't respond when you act like a butthole so now you coat it over with some fake concern and then five hours later you're done dumping on me. But if I tell you anything in response you shut me down. So here's the deal. You treat me like a friend, and we can talk. Sincerely, ME. P.S., don't use my full name to address me unless if you can handle being friends with me. That means you have to be there for me, too. Even when you don't like what I believe.

Funimation, in general, doesn't suck. After all, I prefer their dub of Full Metal Panic! to the actual Japanese. Sousuke's voice, man.. But someone died and let an idiot make the big decisions somewhere between Japan and whatever was aired in America. I'm mean. It's just like... somehow they never got the feel of it or something. Although I've been scanning everyone's responses to this, I will disagree about Kogoro. I think their version of Kogoro is about as spot-on as an English dub can possibly be. I hate the Jimmy thing. I just... why Jimmy. WHY. JIMMY. Sorry, Uncle Jimmy. I just feel that the name has passed it's age. Is that possible? Idk, it just vaguely reminds me of things like Gertrude. Or .. something you call a kid when they're a kid and then you call them their actual full name as they get older..? It just makes it hard for me to take him seriously. ((Harley?!?! We're not even going to start with the many names they've made up for Haibara..)) Conan's voice makes me cringe and Ran sounds almost unfriendly. If you watch it long enough, everyone sounds reasonable with the exception of Conan, for me, that is. But what I cannot stand is how they just decided that "Harley" knows about the Organization just to create unnecessary suspense. It jacks up the entire plot. And since it makes no sense, they just opt to ignore it? Like 'eh, no one will notice :D' I never really watched past that so I can't really point anything else out... >.> Japanese all the way, man. What does it mean?!

Nice to meet you XD I've been here for... too long XD And 300 is an accomplishment! Until you realize that you're less than halfway... I hope you enjoy your time here

There was like... one other person on here who is from my original descent... My grandfather and great grandmother came directly from there.. And there's like, three people who live rather close to where I live, but no one else seems to live where I do.... Unless you're counting America overall :D''

Me too XDD

Yeah, I've been back to writing again recently. I'm working on a chapter for Hearing Silence although I've updated Who I Am and added a oneshot somewhere in there (all are DC, Ai-centric, but you know me ). I also have like.. a chapter for a non-fanfiction story out there on fictionpress... People would love a come back, :DD

So much easier XD Random P.S., I'm working on a dramatic chapter of one of my fanfics~ And it's supposed to be all deeply emotional but I'm just so happy that it's hard to write it XD

I wouldn't expect otherwise XD But it's nice while you're here~ I have more people to talk freely with

@IdentityUnknown I'm just super elated to see you here

Full-screen made it a happy day for me.. *shrugs*

Hakuba. Searching White Horse Here's the breakdown. Kudo Shinichi/Edogawa Conan: As for should end up with this would be the best. They're the only two in the entire world who understand each other at that level. They challenge each other and care a ton for each other without whining about everything. Kudo has matured past his very stupid attitude that he used to have, and though Ran has been fairly mature in contrast, she's waiting for what was, not what is. Haibara and Edogawa have already fought through their differences and have both supported each other in ways no one else has. But thanks to Gosho's obnoxious childhood friend 'rule', the innocent Kudo Shinichi and Mouri Ran are almost certainly actually going to be together in the actual canon series. Tsuburaya Mitsuhiko: ... Why?! Yes, he crushes on her. He has a bright mind for a kid his age, and when he's 18, maybe he'll be the next Kudo Shinichi, with a slightly less annoying Gary Sue (is that what it's called?) character. But Haibara Ai is actually Miyano Shiho, and would be ten years older than him. What happens when he finds out the truth? Awkward. And why should she like a child? She only does what she does to encourage him because she cares for him like her younger brother or child, even. Just like the other Shounen Tanteidan. I also don't see Haibara spilling out her life story to this kid. Ever. So, no. Hakuba Saguru: Like I said above, this is probably best if we actually want to see her with someone. They share British descent, which is pretty neat imo. They're both extremely intelligent, and I think that they have very similar personalities, although Hakuba is much more open to people than Haibara. I think the only obstacle here is how they meet, since they have yet to do so. And there's also the problem of whether Hakuba's "Why did you do it" question gets answered and he doesn't think that the answer is acceptable. Maybe he'd react like Edogawa and say something like "How can you expect me to understand a murderer?!". But from the little I've seen of Hakuba, he's not an unjust person and I think he'd be a gentle and smart match for Haibara. 2nd best match. Akai Shuuichi: He dated her dead sister and was the reason she was murdered. I don't think she'd ever date him. Ever. Maybe she'd come to a place of understanding (which is what it's starting to look like) but I highly doubt they'd be romantic. There's my two cents.

Honestly, the subs weren't terrible. If, of course, you're like me and are a native English speaker with excellent reading speed and good eyes. I write small, so reading small isn't a big deal to me. There are some subs where I have to go from looking at the subs to looking at the action on screen with choppy difficulty, but this wasn't the case for me here. However, it might help that I understand basic Japanese so I don't have to process it as long as most, so it's easier to both take in the english subs, the audio, and the video at the same time. >.> I personally was happy there weren't aggravating errors.

Full-screen is your best friend

Thank you for your help in making it come about As someone who is in love with the characters more than the plot, this was an awesome movie. I guess it was akin to watching a well-written fanfiction come to life (because of all the randomness). The rest is going in a spoiler box for those who haven't seen it yet. Anyway~

Pahahahaha *hugs* Seeing you post was a very pleasant surprise <3

*waves from my corner* Yookoso. *eats popcorn*

Dear Anonymous, Kinda getting sick of you thinking I don't try, and everything I do is lame. So sorry that my upper body strength is close to none, that doesn't mean I wasn't making an honest effort. And to be even more honest, I tried a heck of a lot to be able to not get upset and cry or try to run off because of the embarrassing situation. When you just think everything should be easy for me, you're wrong. And drawing on the computer is easy? I spent three hours on that thing for you and all you did was criticize. I don't want you to try for yourself on my computer tomorrow because you're going to need me to baby you through the process. You don't have a clue how to use it. So don't get mad when I tell everyone I need to be left alone. Don't sit here and judge what I'm doing to distract myself and focus. Because otherwise I turn into an emotional monster. I get it. When that lady said that it's lonely being like me and her, and even you. There's certain things about us that no one else is willing to understand. And what's more annoying is that for some awful reason I've been given the ability to understand most other people, especially like us. So while I understand you and try to help you, you judge me and others because they're not exactly like you and you don't think they have any right to feel a certain way just because they didn't have life as hard as you. That's not your place to judge. I'm just not super happy right now, and I'd wish you could appreciate things instead of tear everything I do apart. See if I cook you anything to eat ever again. -.- Sincerely, Me.

I barely know anyone here anymore. Misaki-chan <3 (I feel like we used to be a lot closer than we are now ^^ IdentityUnkown (Even though she's gone MIA recently >3>) Leiyu Magmatic Skyterror (I think I should call you by a more convenient name) And I used to be close to more people than that. I'll talk to people, and I know some people, but I don't think we're close friends. So yeah. There's my sadly biased list based on who talks to me now Honest list of closest friends on DCW: