dear anonymous,
i've always considered myself a loyal person.
i like to think that i make friends based on personalities i admire,
and when i find a good friend, a good person, i treasure them.
but i hate how i latch on.
i'm clingy at times and i need affirmation.
i've learned how to not actively seek it, but i still need it
even if it's just from time to time.
i hate feeling like i'm the one giving more than i am receiving
on the blunt end of this unbalanced relationship.
but
i know how you hate clingy people
how you hate sentimental people
because we used to laugh at those girls who seem to latch onto you
and we'd laugh at how needy they were
but i never told you that each and every time,
i get scared that, in your eyes, i'm no different from them.
but somehow
you always know
when to tell me i'm important
when to spend an afternoon with me
when to take me on an adventure,
sneaking into secret places where we shouldn't be,
sitting across from each other in comfortable silence.
at the end of the day
i hate how reliant i've become of you.
if something makes me crash and burn
without hesitation
you'd still be the one i'd call.
signed,
me