Forever Lost

Dear Not-Too-Anonymous, For some reason your anonymous letter reminds me of something... I wonder if you watched a video that a friend of mine made if it would apply even a little to how you feel or maybe even felt up until now? If you feel like doing a youtube search, I'll give you the search criteria here: Random Person Who Read Your Letter, Me

>.>''' deja vu's are super scary for me... because something always happens that changes a lot of things in my life when I start having them. I dream them all in weird clusters... then over time they appear and the deja vu happens... after the deja vu happens, stuff I usually don't like happens. But then again, I don't cope well with large changes in life so I always associate it with something bad. It could be a good change but... idk.

o.o awesome! *still haven't. ever.*

Yeah.. considering a lot of the people who were in my gifted and talented class were still pretty idiotic about tons of things.. I'm not sure about IQ being the greatest measurement.. Ew. I just had deja vu. Something is going to happen... ://

People. Are. Stupid. ^--on my mind.

Dear Anonymous, You know.. when I say I'm antisocial.. I'm trying to tell you to leave me alone. Not to bombard me with more annoying and meaningless words. I never asked you to trust me. I never asked you to share your life story with me. I never asked anything like that, so why do you make it your mission to act as though I'm your great almighty secret holder?! I don't want to be bothered with it! I like helping people with their problems because I know they need help. I don't like solving every teensy little issue you have in life because you won't use your brain to figure it out. Don't pretend you have me figured out. Don't pretend like you and I are best buddies. I don't know how much more I can do to make it clear. Sincerely, Me.

Hahahahahahahahaha. You think you're funny? Really? 'Cause I've really been nice to you. This whole freaking time. But really, if you try to take advantage of me, it's not happening. That game's over and done with. So tomorrow morning, if you don't own up to your mistakes, prepare for the raising of lava and all that. You don't get to use my thorough cleaning as a reason to not do your freaking chores. Don't stand there and go back on an agreement, or say you did your chores because my work can pass as good enough for you. Don't tell me you covered for me and just can't remember for what. Because I'm seriously very very angry with you and it will take only a moment for me to go off on you. Tomorrow morning, get yourself together. Or else. ^--- Thaaat's what's on my mind ~

Dear Anonymous, Why aren't there any jobs out here?! I can't understand how a bunch of jerks who can't do their jobs because they're too lazy can get and keep jobs somehow but someone who is completely and totally willing to work above and beyond what's necessary cannot find a place to work! Someone call me and offer me a job! And you, certain employer that didn't call me after I called a bazillion times, YOU suck. >3> Sincerely, Me :3

@The Banana Assassin: We all make our own choices. If God wanted to make everything so He would rule over with a big stick and hit everyone over the head for doing something out of line, then there's no way we'd be here as it is. Plus, if He made everything go His way and controlled all that stuff, we wouldn't be able to make our own decisions. Cultures change over time due to the choices the people make and others follow along.

Dear Anonymous, You call others ignorant simply because you're so deceived. It really makes me laugh at how confused you are. I think you have your things mixed up. The devil created and fueled racism and every other thing you hate. But you think that he's so accepting? Hahahahahaha. Here's the thing, sweetie. If you're not following God's commands, you're following the devil's. That's the simple truth. God gives you grace. The devil comes and lies to you, steals from you, and ultimately seeks to kill you. You fall back on sin - which is obeying the devil. The reason not just anyone can come to God is because you have to love God - why else would you go to Heaven? It's really simple. You either love God, love mercy, and love justice and in so doing, turn from the darkness to the light and walk with God, or you love the devil, love sin, love lies, love yourself, and love wrongdoings and turn to the darkness and walk with the devil. You're so convinced that God is so mean, while all He has for you is good, while you're so convinced the devil is so nice that all he has for you is death and destruction. What lies you have listened to! So be a slave to sin. Enjoy it. When you're leading others down that path with you, with a proud look on your face, maybe you'll think when you realize that everything in your life is going wrong. Or maybe when you're depressed and you constantly think about suicide. Or maybe when you're more apt to hurt someone that to help them. Or maybe when you can only think about saving yourself. What will it take for you to realize that the path you're taking is going to eventually lead to your destruction? I wish you the best, and I hope that your wish to help and protect people prevails over your love for evil. Sincerely, A concerned citizen.

@kyyo hahaha when her arm was not bending it bothered me so.. Idk! XD and I used pixlr - which is like a slightly limited online kind of photoshop or whatnot @Anime Girl 4 Eva: Thanks

I just had my worst realization confirmed with the thoughts of others... 99.99% chance that Haibara will die.............. No. Just.... no.. T.T

Lol, I guess not, especially for Yahoo!. It was a mixture of "What not to wear to an interview" and "Cat walks down a refrigerator" or something like that lol.

^^ Thank you~

So this took a lot of work, but I think it turned out pretty well. I used one of the more common pictures of Haibara as a reference and took off from there.

Dear Anonymous, I have to ask... what is good? What defines a good person? Is it someone who follows all the rules and all the laws? Is it someone who does things for others? Is it someone who never lies, cheats, or steals? What is good? How does one who loves evil define good? Does pretending to be perfect mean good? I am very lost as to your idea. Does that mean someone who messes up isn't good? Or does it simply mean someone who is not evil is good? I know you have a heart for people. I am the same. But I must say, we are still young. You are younger than I, so I will take this as a time to impart what little wisdom I have acquired from the past few years of experience. I don't believe that paying your taxes, taking care of everything, and overall being nice to people means that you are good. I don't believe that doing everything right means you are good. If that was true, then I'd always be a good person. But the truth is, sometimes I don't fit the bill. I don't reach the mark. I get angry and upset, I hurt people out of my own pain. I have lied, stolen, cheated, and done other things I'd rather not mention. If I was convinced these things were acceptable, then I'd be convinced I was a good person. People do stupid stuff. Sometimes, they believe its right. Almost every television show nowadays says it is fine to have "oneness" relations with people you don't marry. So someone who sleeps around is a good person then, right? They believe it is right - they think it is fine and everyone approves readily. It's not against the law. Does it make it right? No. Does believing that a lie is true make it true? No. So will you readily defend those lies that you believe? Do you realize that in actuality, you're causing more problems for that person? Raise a child and tell them that it is alright to steal. You feel like stealing, right, child? It's okay, then. Go steal all you want. People will tell you it is wrong but since you feel this way it can only be natural, so do it. You don't want to hurt the child's feelings, right? It's a big part of who they are. They want to steal. So you say its okay. You say you will support them and keep them from harm when they do it. One day, this child will be put in jail for stealing. You will be the one partially responsible. You can tell them that people will tell them that they will go to jail for their wrongdoing - but you are convinced that everything else this child does is sweet and innocent and good - no way would they put them in jail. Fool. I tell the truth because I know something very important about it. Lie to the child and cause them to fall and you will have their blood on your hands. I refuse to just give into this beautifully constructed lie. It seems like its not fair, right? How cruel to say to a child that they will go to jail or worse for their actions! The moment you enable it, the moment you support the wrongdoing and refuse to hurt their feelings by telling the truth, you are responsible. You want me to say pretty words like "oh that happened to everyone else who did wrong, but this certain wrongdoing will be hidden away by all the good stuff you do everywhere else" and "you're a good person so you will not receive punishment" and "only a cruel and heartless person would stop you". Are you stupid? I will tell the truth to you whether it hurts your precious feelings or it messes with your beliefs simply because I refuse to have your blood on my hands because I was too scared to hurt your feelings. You think that the "good" actions you do will cover up all the bad. You think that if in life you only do one thing wrong and everything about you otherwise is good that it will be enough. But really, is that all that there is to it? Do you think that an all-good person could have just one problem with them? Why does someone lie? Because they are selfish. Why does someone steal? Because they are selfish. Think about it. Many problems lie within another. Humans are self-seeking. Even the person who gives everything for others. If they do not give to God, then there is something inside that is self-seeking and self-serving. I'm not perfect. I've made tons of mistakes. I still make them. I'm still struggling with trying not to seem like Miss Perfect while wailing about how I can't do things right. But the difference is, I have the blood of Jesus and his forgiveness over me. I don't know if that makes me a "good" person or not, really. But all I have to say is this: If you cannot meet these things, then I cannot think of you as a "good" person - just maybe as a nice person, someone who needs love and care and respect, but not someone I will try to be like. He hath shewed thee, O man, what is good; and what doth the Lord require of thee, but to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy God? Micah 6:8 Do justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with God. Sincerely, Me.