Forever Lost

I attract stalkers. I think that's a disease or something.. I suck at handling awkward situations. That's also a disease.

*contemplates* Okay, so if I save someone, that'd be boring. But if I don't, that'd be mean. This is Akai Sera, a seemingly nice person that I rather get along with... so far.. I think... pretty much. Even though she's apparently violent. Hmmm... Oh gosh, I hope this isn't a time sensitive issue... Are you drowning? Or falling? Or something?? Well, in that case... *saves*

@Akai Sera Bahahahaha... oh dear. I could never manage to be close friends with my exes (I leave them hating me apparently.. XDDD) Well, I do have one who is a friend, but not very close.. Maybe if you're really close then you can explain that you don't know how you feel about him. And eight months? So he finally gets to be around you again and realizes you're super awesome... You don't have to return the feeling. It's nice to be liked/wanted etc., but if you don't really care for him like that, you'll both be as miserable as ever (believe me..). I think staying friends for a few weeks before you decide is a good idea, and if he's just suddenly interested because he sees you again, he might get over it if it isn't as sincere as he thinks. Your best bet is to tell him to wait on your answer and not bother you about it or else XD Although, I can't say much because I've had to use help from other friends of mine to subtley tell a guy who liked me like a year ago that I was going out with someone because he was practically stalking me at my mom's wedding. >.>''''

@Mohorovicic Thank you for the advice!! Yeah >.>'' Reading that now (I probably still have that problem...) some of the sentences make me cringe. I will keep that in mind when writing

@Akai Sera: Quirks... >.>'''' I made myself a personal rule: exes stay exes. Never take anyone back. But that's my personal one, some people's second chances work.. but I'm just guessing that Mr. Ex isn't much on your criteria list XD I just go to internal lala land when I get super big compliments.. I couldn't possibly actually hurt someone >.<''' not intentionally.. at least. I don't know, this thread is one of those things that I could never really talk with others about. I guess I never made a criteria list? So here, we'll just add to the random list of things people don't like: I don't really care for long, down to the shoulders or past hair on guys... Whiny guys. Cheap guys. Girly guys. All out on my end. Inconsiderate guys. Guys who constantly make inappropriate jokes. Guys who are arrogant. Still out. Uhhh... Yeah. I'm not too concerned on looks, I guess, other than the hair. I thought I didn't like facial hair, but it's really not that bad.. Still not an attracting point, though. I guess most guys with longer hair are either hippies(ish.. not that bad but still >3>) or rebellious. Jussayin. Soo... the type of guy I like is the type of guy I'm with... guess I lucked out. XD

I think the problem is not the order of operations entirely, but the way you do it. It's supposed to be the order of operations (PEMDAS) but then, left to right. That comes in handy in these situations where technically there are more than one multiplication sets going on.. so starting from the left, you get three, then three times three going to the right through the problem. Someone probably already said that but whatever >3> *the one time in life where I feel smart in math..*

OH I LOVE VICTORIQUE!!!!!! Just because she's entirely more awesome, I'd say her. She's more like the detective-oriented Haibara <333 And as we all know Haibara > Conan in almost every situation >3> XDD So if they went head to head, I think she'd win. However, her explanations are harder to follow XD

*saves because you're a Shin/Shi Co/Ai and you're a part of the club I'm in* :3

I'm having more problems dealing with a fifteen year old than with a seven year old. The seven year old who was yelling was listening within a few minutes. The fifteen year old is still whining about the seven year old "starting it". Really?

@Akai Sera: But you're cool T.T I'm a weird mixture 'cause I'm not really a tomboy, but I'm not a total girlygirl -.-''' I usually wear jeans all the time and I cut my hair all the time because I'm either bored with it or it's too hot. I'm generally not lady-like either, but I'm embarrassed easily and don't have the courage to just be me half the time. I'm polite and quiet and generally unnoticeable >3>'' So I'm a mess and undesirable from the sounds of it... and you're cool XDDD So don't feel bad~ (even though I doubt you do o.o)

@Akai Sera: o.o''''''' I think, despite like one minor detail about eyes, you described my current boyfriend o.o'''''''''' <.< >.> He'sminejustsoyouknow... XDDDDDD

Bah! Okay, so when I made that other picture of Haibara, I hadn't realized that I already had a thread.. so they got merged or whatever and so now the thread name is Angel Haibara... if any magical awesome people out there can change it back to Forever Lost's Art Thread I'll be forever grateful~~ In other news, I drew a random picture. See it. Just a random girl..

Is this why the KaiShin peoples have been having a heyday on ffnet? >.>''' I guess it's likely.. and it's nice to know that it's not purely coincidence.. but if they are cousins or somehow related, it should be made known. As much as I love Gosho, he's killing me with all the crap he keeps secret and in the backs of our minds to wonder about. It took HOW long to find out what my dearest Haibara's mommy said to her? *personal issues* Anyway >3>'''

The one thing I love about waiting for these movies (even though recently, I've honestly not cared for them too much, with the exception of about one scene in movie 15 and almost 70% of movie 13) is that they usually come out around my birthday, which makes me feel special :3 Unless, of course, a delay occurs and it's more around my boyfriend's birthday in November >3>'' I wish it'd come out on my birthday, but it's way too early in the month to expect that XD

New Divide

358 pages?! And I was at the founding... Geeez~ Well, hi peoples! I guess I'm a technical graduate from this club.. but I made the logo and helped with starting it so I guess it'd only be right to stick around a bit... XDD

On my mind... When awesome AMVs had to do with selecting the right scenes with the music and the words... when it was about timing and feeling, not the fanciest effects. When even the crappiest video file was overlooked in the amazing editing abilities of the amv maker... that was a good time.

I regret choosing to let myself die... not my self.. the selfish part of me... but letting the selfish part of me kill me. I regret listening to people who didn't have a clue what they were talking about.. and making the wrong descisions to cause me to have to fight all the past things that hurt me. I regret crying out to the wrong people while refusing to let the right people help me. If I hadn't done all those things.. I would be living life happily now. Instead, I am learning how to live.

Dear Anonymous, I don't want to be bitter or depressed about this.. but you all said some really pretty and encouraging things. When I did what I was reluctant to do, in partial for me and in partial for you, you didn't come through. You don't know how it feels to have your never-ending support suddenly cut off and spent on others who I've never even heard of before. Either way, you're missing out on my last message. Hope to see you revive somehow.. I need your support. Sincerely, Me. Her. And all the in-betweens.