Forever Lost

I was reading a bunch of headlines on Yahoo! news and in my head I read "What not to wear on a refrigerator." >.> I think I might need to slow down when skimming these things..

Thank you!

@Anime Girl 4 Eva: Oh~ I misunderstood! It's alright XDD @Phoenix Tears: 1 Corinthians 6:9 mentions it as well as Romans 1:26-32.. Matthew 19:4-5 Jesus mentions that a man should leave his household and cleave to his wife (in other words, not his husband or partner or whatever). I might add, however, that these mentions weren't for saying these people should go die - but in fact that we were once this way and we, as well as they, can repent and be followers of Christ, etc. It's not a matter of whether or not it's in the Bible, it's whether or not people chose to follow and/or believe it. And, random question, could someone show me how to do the spoiler tag so I can let people click a button before they read possibly-somehow-offensive words? >.>'''

@The Banana Assassin: Oh, I see, yeah that's definitely a totally different ball park, and I have no personal experience with that ^^;; I only have research I did once for English IV and yeah, punishment is pretty severe.. Pretty scary o.o;; @Ezra Scarlet: True, the thread wasn't specifically made for that, but I do think it has a lot to do with the topic. People who are or support homosexuality (etc.) struggle with what they declare to believe. Other factors to do with this subject could include, but is not limited to, school bullying, social standards, and suicide. These are all struggles to deal with. Although, I forget who may or may not have referred to me as an extremist, I wanted to thank you! Because from the sounds of it, a lot of people aren't really sure what they believe (and that's not really wrong; at least they admit it and are willing to find out). I know what I believe and I think that as someone who really believes something wouldn't say that the opposite is true. For that reason, I'm happy to be called an extremist. That means I'm not normal and I don't fit in with what everyone finds acceptable. I'm not a hater or a person who is out to hurt people "beneath" them - in fact, that's actually against what Jesus teaches by example and words. So thank you for the honor. This is probably going to be one of my last posts on here soo~ If I remembered how to do the spoiler tag, I would probably do that for this paragraph simply because I figure you all would like to get off this subject and move on to another.

@Akakata I have no idea.. this happened during the time that I was no longer at the school she goes to, so after that I lost contact with her. At least she's not putting herself in the hospital that I'm aware of..

In regard for the way the Bible is translated over time, it was an extremely sacred document and was copied with tons of rechecks. If someone misspelled God's name (if I remember this correctly) they had to literally burn the page they misspelled it on and redo everything. It went through extreme and rigorous checks during copying and translations. They actually found some really old scrolls that actually had some of the ancient manuscripts for the Bible and they were exact word for word except for a few minor changes that had to do with sentence structure. It is one of the most (if not the most) accurate documents from history by the standards that historians hold to measure the probable accuracy of documents. The events were written down as it happened, not hundreds of years later. There were tons of copies and each of them were identical. The accuracy of the Bible is something that I do not believe is a very questionable thing, considering if you do your research you will find that what I am telling you here about it is very true. The only thing you really have to be concerned about with the different versions is when there are "footnotes" that have been added. These notes are from people and their speculations on what things mean and blahblahblah - don't treat those as actual scripture and you won't have any problems. If you're still unsure, just go back to the original Greek and Hebrew translations and look up word-for-word what something means if you want to know if someone translated your version of the Bible correctly. I know you didn't mean offense, and none was taken I hope this information was helpful to you in some way.

@Akakata I think they were caught before they were hurt critically. This was someone she considered close, even though she's the one who still spread her diary around. This girl is just jacked up in the head and she was pulling my friend with her. They've harmed themselves before separately, but this other girl had the bright idea to just go do it together in the girls' bathroom which got them expelled. So, technically, she was a real close friend to her, but to me, I don't think she was a good friend to her at all.

Hmm well first, let's respond to Akakata: She got expelled because... she was harming herself along with her 'friend' who convinced her to do it in the girls' bathroom. Second: It is in the Bible that it is an abomination unto God for homosexual-type relations to occur in an explicit manner if you catch my drift. It doesn't say "Go beat these people" at least, not in the New Testament where it is found. Third: Our country was founded by Christians in order to worship God. In fact, it was said that the US Government would be "wholly inadequate" for people who did not follow God. The original intent of "freedom of religion" was during the time where "religion" referred only to Christianity. Of course, our laws and beginning has been re-interpreted to fit anyone and everyone's agendas - so of course this was warped. Also, separation of church and state isn't in the law and doesn't even appear in the Constitution. I understand that I'm probably the only one here who is kind of on the "opposing" and "stubborn" side of this. However, I believe that if others are allowed to rant on their dislike of God and of people who many times unfortunately represent Christianity - which I follow - I should also be allowed some input. The thing is... a true follower of God is forgiving and full of love. This doesn't mean to agree with and support sin - but it does mean to not treat people that you think are "not up to your standards" like crap. People with nasty pride like that dig themselves a hole. I love my God and will follow what He says - He will never be irrelevant. People choose to do wrong, people go along with the flow, and are easily persuaded. There is both good and evil in the world - I don't think it's very responsible for a human who is fully capable of making their own choices to blame their choices on God, but never give God the glory when things turn out well. All in all, I'm not hating or anything like that, and I hope you didn't get that impression at all.

@Akakata - Unfortunately, I haven't been able to keep contact with her. She got in trouble thanks to one of her 'friends' and got expelled - which in turn caused her to lose her cell phone because of her parents. I think she may have changed numbers or something, and she's hardly ever on facebook, so :/ But she is a rather wonderful person.

Hmm.. truth be told, I don't support it. However, I don't support people being disgusting to others because of it, either. When I was in eighth grade I had a very important friend. She was a lesbian and so were some of her friends. She was one of my closest friends and was probably one of the most loyal people I know. She was probably the easiest person to get along with - but everyone hated her. They said her name with disgust. She hadn't hurt anyone. She didn't spread rumors and lies about people. She didn't start fights or get into it with people. She handled everything calmly and told her friends to chill out when things got nasty. I would often find myself yelling at people (I was rather outspoken during this time) for talking in corners with nasty expressions on their faces while obviously ridiculing my friend. She was even deeply hurt by one of her friends who decided to spread her personal diary around her friend group and made her an outcast even among those who were considered outcasts because of their 'sexual orientation'. But she always took it in stride and showed a brave face. She always found a way to forgive. Everyone is human - we all make mistakes. We all miss the mark. Although I don't believe it is right because that's what it says in the Bible, I don't believe it's right to treat people like crap. You don't see people treating those who go around sleeping with others before marriage like crap, or the people who get places dishonestly, or people who lie about everything, do you? People are very important. They should always receive a second chance, a warm smile, and Godly love in my book. No matter what you've done, who you are, or how you act. Every person deserves to be treated kindly and given grace.

On my mind? A lot of things. I'm wondering why I finally gave up. I mean, heck, when I saw an injustice, I decided to do something about it. Something that would help those being hurt. Something to protect people. I smiled in the faces of those who would spit in mine. I was told a thousand times that I couldn't, or that I shouldn't. It would be too hard! I would give up on it! But I finished it. And when stuff happened, I re-finished it. I worked hard. I tried really really hard. I did what I could to bring happiness and protect those I cared about and other random people who might become victims. But then I got tired. I got tired of working hard for no reason. I got tired of being hurt by those I wanted to protect. I got tired of being everyone's counselor and yet also everyone's enemy. Was it too difficult to at least sort of like the person who worked hard to help you? To make your life more enjoyable? Apparently it was. All of the people who had intentionally caused injustices would receive love and I would receive hate. For a long time, I took it. But I couldn't do it anymore. I was tired of being loyal for people who would readily betray me. So I freaked out. I had breakdowns. Every pain got worse than the first. Every person I decided to trust dug a dagger deeper into me than the last. Until finally, I believe I stopped caring about helping people. My naive happiness left me. It turned into a dark and all-consuming depression. And when the final stab was taken, I stopped wanting to try. To try at making things work. To try at having ambition. To try breathing. And I thought that the last person I trusted had finally stopped hurting me. It was only the beginning. And after all this psychological crap.. I stopped living on the inside. I didn't want to be here anymore. I couldn't really kill myself, but my inner self was gone. Why try to help someone when they can only hurt you? Why try to get to know someone when they lie and don't have a clue who you are, nor do they care. Why risk getting hurt? Why? Since then, I've been trying to revive myself. It's not working well. I feel like I have to re-learn what it is to live - if I ever knew what that was in the first place. I've come to realize it was much my fault. The breaking up of the group that I wanted so desperately to come to terms in the beginning. It was my fault because I couldn't keep it together. But what hurts is... I'm the only one who held what we all had dear. I'm the only one that still cares. Because for everyone else, everything else is much more important. Although... I still wonder. When was it that I gave up? When was it that I let jerks who did nothing short of cause injustice in this world to tell me that I could not laugh? That I was stupid, that I couldn't do anything? That I was misguided, that I wasn't worth it? When was it that I started listening and obeying to the jerks and the people who receive love from those they manipulate? When was it that I lost all hope in caring? When was it? That's on my mind. That's actually the short version so.. Sorry for the interruption.