Dear Anonymous,
I thought it would make you feel better, but now you've got me all confused...
Anyway, I thought I'd do it there cuz no one's there to see me, or at least no one who knows. They wouldn't care. But now for some reason it keeps reminding me of you and freaking me out even though it's supposed to do the opposite. I want take it out of my life but I can't because you said that tiny little thing.
-me.
PS. I'm sorry. I know exactly how it feels to be in your situation, but I'm not like her, so too bad.
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Dear Anonymouses,
Whose fault do you think it is? Who raised me up so I'm expected to act like someone five years younger at heart while if anything, it'd be the opposite? Who doesn't allow me act like a normal person my age, expecting me to work like a fully grown adult and to have fun like a kid? So before you tell me I don't fit in and that I should go get some friends, and that I'm the one who's acting stupid and that I'm the one who's stubbornly refusing to become socially involved with other people, you should let me grow up the way I want to. The younger kids are scared of me because of the look that has recently become the one I always wear on my face (famously known as "her look that kills" amongst the family), all the older teens think I'm a baby because I'm younger and because when I sit to talk with them when you're around I have to act like a third grader cuz you can hear me if I do anything else. And well, people my age just don't understand why I'm like this. If I could be myself in front of you guys, if you just let me have my own way slip by without having to be lectured or overprotected... But you don't, so I have to be like this, the supposedly cold person you know. I'm expected to get emotionally devastated, yet not to cry. I'm expected not to understand the joke yet still laugh. What am I, a toy?
And there's no way you're denying how much you're spoiling him. He used to be the innocent, adorable little guy until you took it easy and decided to neglect him because you're first child went smoothly, so obviously the second would too even if you neglected his bringing up. HUGE MISTAKE. And he's spoiled, way too much, that I'm so happy I wasn't in his place. I don't want to be the brat he is.
Too bad for you, both children are imperfect even though one of them could have been and the other could have been not perfect, but way better. I'm just facing the facts by saying 70% of the reason I've changed so much ever since THAT happened was because you didn't (and don't to this moment) pay attention to my feelings and my personality. You're not allowing me to be who I really am, pressuring that Real Me and compressing it so much that it broke down into pieces and I don't know who I am anymore. So just don't you blame me for not having any friends besides my cousins because they're the only ones who know (and can relate to) what's happening to me.
-the person who is not afraid to mention that she is your daughter.