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I hope you don't mind me saying this back, but 2 years ago I went to a therapist to talk about this... I lied about my suicidal thoughts because I didn't want to be on any drugs, but the therapist said-"you don't need therapy... your sister does..."- I still smile about that today But I couldn't go back to that therapist anymore, because our insurance wasn't covering for it and we were loosing money... My mom got so complainy. I told her I felt better and didn't need to go anymore. That's why I cant go back to therapy... I just have to work this out on my own. Please understand that. But I appreciate your support, Rival-or-er...Comrade Thank you so much! And to IdentityUnknown... I don't want to blame my mom a lot because she's also abused by my sister... My sister has hit her before and called her names... It must be hard on her too, but she thinks when she talks to me about all this it lets all her stress of the moment go... and it might, but mine gets higher... and since my mom is 62 years old SHE'S PRONE TO HAVE HEART ATTACKS! with her blood pressure she could fall down any minute... she even tells me this and cries... it's like she thinks I have the right answers to everything, but I'm just a kid... I don't know what to do... Thank you so much for the support ^^ You're awesome!

Forever... YOU'RE THE BEST!! hearing-or um reading (you know) was what I really needed. Right now I'm so thankful for finding this website, I really want to thank you for your words. They really meant something to me and I will treasure your thoughts- I honestly will, because when I have nothing else to fill me... things like this make so much difference. And I hope you know that whenever you need someone to talk to as well, I'll be here. So thank you for being there for me. : )

ummmmmm... *ponders while fidgety* where should I begin...? Well... during the very start of the recession 5 years ago... my family lost our house and we were forced to move. My mom lost her job a year later and we couldn't afford the rent in our condo... we then moved to an apartment... and a year later we moved again- and again.... but that doesn't explain it all so let me go through things one by one. Firstly- Lets start with my birthday... it sucked- but I'm not allowed to complain. I got NOT ONE present for my birthday, my sister didn't wish me happy birthday and went to Prom... Also before she left she made sure to beat the living crap out of me and manage to cancel my sweet sixteen party. And My grandma called me my sister's name (which wasn't as bad as other things-but it still sucks to be referenced with her.) My sister is a very selfish person. For the past 3 years she has ruined every birthday I've had. My 14th Birthday was ruined when she Blew out the candles on my cake and wished I would die. My 15th Birthday was when she threw my present out the window and it broke. My 16th Birthday was ruined when she punched me until my nose was bleeding. After 2 days when these incidents took place- she acted like nothing happened and she smiled and hugged me. if theat's not Bi-polar... I don't know what is....... -____- Secondly-I'm moving in about 2 weeks so my mom keeps complaining to me about how everything in her life is turning out bad (note: I've had to listen to her the past 5 years like this) Plus I share a room with my mom, because my sister won't share a room with me... so I haven't had my own room for the past 5 years.... I've moved every year in the past 5 years along with schools... And I finally got to choose the school I wanted this time and my sister keeps F***ing with my subconscious telling me "nobody will like you over at that school for who you are..." yeah- HER EXACT WORDS! Next- My mom and dad have been divorced since I was 4 and my dad doesn't know anything about me. He doesn't know I like anime- he doesn't care that he's physically abused me when he was drunk. My mom knows I like anime and detective Conan, but she hates when I'm anywhere near it. She rejects it with her entire being and that makes everything harder. My sister too... She hates anime so much. She's a cheerleader by the way- my sister is literally a lying B*tch and she hits me and makes me clean and do things for her. ( and I can't complain or else I'll be beaten up...) My friend-(She who must not be named)-betrayed me. We got in a fight about how I have no don't do anything and she called me a brat and said I "don't care about anyone but myself" (WELL, IF THAT DIDN'T HIT A NERVE I WOULD SAY I'M EMOTIONLESS!) but she was my best friend.... she called me later saying sorry- I was just stressed... I didn't call back... I was angry, but a few weeks ago I knew I regretted it, so I wrote a heartfelt apology letter and gave it to her. She still never talked to me. When I confronted her, she said she was done with the drama and didn't want anything to do with me.... (I'm seriously holding back tears now...) Also... My sister sneaks out of the house when my moms at work and I have to hide her secrets or else I'll be abused some more. My mom has no control over my sister... after all my mom is 62 years old and should be retired... My dad is in the National Guard and is always away a camps and military bases (he's also being deployed to Afghanistan this Christmas) So I'm always at home on the Computer. And DCW/writing/reading/watching anime gives me something to do- but my mom and sister hate me for it... My sister always complains that she hates me and my mom. That she wants nothing to do with us and that we live in a crappy place... WE COULDN'T HELP THAT! She also complained to ME one time that SHE wanted to commit suicide... I didn't say anything of course, but my god did I just want to SCREAM AT HER!!! SHE RUINED MY PERSONALITY! SHE KILLS ME WITH HER PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE!!! "I hate it here too... but I don't F***ing complain like a B*tch..." That's what I should say. Oh, yeah and did I mention she hit me with the car one time. She's lucky I didn't break my leg or get a concussion. But what kind of F***ed up person hits their own little sister with a F***ing CAR!?!? I can't have any opinions with my family anymore... the only friend I could talk to about everything is gone and I'm still abused by my sister-(physically and mentally)... I've also cut my wrist... Please don't try to say anything about "It will get better!" or "don't let it get to you!" because for 5 years I thought it would get better and tried not to have it get me, But it's not like she's gonna stop abusing me or my friend will come back and say sorry for everything. Alright-Alright... maybe by some miracle that does happen... it still wouldn't changed what has happened... it wouldn't change anything... I can't just forget about it like I try too... If you read all of this... I thank you so God-Damn much for being there. I sometimes don't know if I can do it anymore, but only stay because I know I can't kill myself... For some reason I want to-but for some other strange reason I won't... Thank you Min'na

I've never really posted here that much... even though I'm a member -____- but I don't know where to start with everything in my life... I know this is being kinda selfish, but I just want to spill my guts about everything that's happening to me right now and find some support... If that's okay with the other LHC members...?

hmmmm... #2 1.)One of My favorite Characters in Supernatural is Bobby 2.)One of My favorite Characters in Supernatural is Dean 3.)One of My favorite Characters in Supernatural is Sam (if you don't know the series-just guess)

9.) Watch Supernatural!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

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Get my @$$ over to Kisaki Eri's and file for a divorce. What would you do if your best friend actually hated you?

kaiba Killed you because he sckrewed the rules.. Tea killed you with friendship Tristin killed you with the Millenium FRIZZBEE~!!! Yami killed you with his "HOLY RA!" catchphrase Joey killed you with his brooklyn Rage~!!! My-Valentine killed you with her bussums Bakura killed you with his Gayness and Pegasus killed you by making you watch the Spice girls movie over and over again... ....yeah, I've seen all the episodes and I loved them XP cuz I'm just that cool!!!! Detective Conan: the Abridged series

If you study and BELIEVE~!!! *makes rainbow motion with hands* Is it possible to me not to love Supernatural? XD (TV show)

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Light (deathnote)

right now... HOT PLEASE~!!!! Now or Never?

I wrap it around your neck and you die Ice cream XP

I just visited this forum to say one thing.... WHY DOES EVERYONE SAY THAT "THAT PERSON" IS AGASA-HAKASE!?!?!? It's ....... *eye twitches* RIDICULOUS!!!!!! EVERY TIME I THINK OF THE BLACK ORGANIZATION NOW... I think of that one lone dark room.... with a narrow lineup to one solo desk and a tall black swivel chair- AND THEN I JUST SEE AGASA-HAKASE swipe around in the chair going "Hello Kudo Shinichi." with a VERY SERIOUS LOOK~!!!! I can't take it seriously even if I wanted to!!!!! ALL THE IMAGINARY CHARACTERS I SET UP IN MY MIND ENCOUNTERING HIM ARE LAUGHING TOO HARD FOR ME TO TAKE THE WHOLE THING SERIOUSLY!!!! ...... so yeah... I'm gonna think it's Agasa-Hakase until they finally reveal who "that person" is...... which will probably be in- *looks at watch* -maybe another 6 years..... -________-