Kenzi

yup, I was referring to both of you. uh, I think I'll take the liberty to disagree with you again. I said this in my last post, but I'll say it again: Granted a select few are decent, but most ["depressing" lyric-oriented] songs about relationships or breakups come off as whiny, and they never cease to get on my nerves after being repeated on the radio for the hundredth time. Anyone can easily convey their "sadness" or "misery" over some words, to be honest. Most of these songs don't come off as meaningful at all. They come off as obnoxious and even somewhat passive aggressive at times. Emotion or stories that can be conveyed through instruments and notes have a much more substantial effect on me. Joe Hisaishi has a talent for this and I absolutely revel in his work. I don't listen to lyric songs as often anymore. I still listen to the radio once in a while for those few gems I do manage to come across, but generally: instrumentals >>>>>>>> lyric songs, in my opinion. lol, don't get me wrong because I also have a huge list of lyric songs I enjoy listening to. ahaha, I'm not a fan of metal songs. they're a bit too "loud" for my taste, if that makes sense, lol.

haha, I don't know why, but that Hetalia gif caught me off guard. I thought I'd just point that out, lol. welp, my grades got updated today. that calc quiz didn't raise my grade by much, so I'm still a bit borderlined. ...at least it sounds like you're not going borderline! haha, the closest I've had to an 11:59pm clutch was when I handed in an essay a 11:56pm. close enough? lol -- OMM: this #teamblackandblue and #teamwhiteandgold freaking blew up the internet today. I'm on the white and gold side. Even the physics teacher addressed in in class. Even the bio teacher addressed it in class. Even the custodians and vice principal addressed it during lunch. But even on the "enhanced picture" (right side), I still think it's white and gold ... despite the dress actually being black and blue. what.

haha, yeah. she's definitely wasn't the most... pleasant thing to witness. All I'm worried about for senior year are those college apps. After those are done, I'm going to kick the bucket and prop my legs up on a stool for the rest of the year. Gotta make the best out of it, lol. I hope things will be good on your end as well! It gets a bit frustrating at times, but I'm sure our parents mean well, haha. Ohh, I remember using a similar website. If I recall correctly, it was called futureme.org--where you would type a message to "future you" and it would email it to you years later. It's always nice to have a real person to vent to, but it makes me feel rather crummy putting my burdens on someone. It's probably why I don't vent to my friends often. I'm not gonna lie--typing on a word doc can get lonely at times, lol. I don't want to apply this generalization to all adults though. A lot of the teachers at our school tend to be able to empathize with most students, and I can definitely attest for that. It's probably because most of them went through the same experiences that we're going through, and it has certainly helped me through some rough times.

ehehe, sorry. I didn't mean to bombard this thread with our ramblings, haha.

Oh geez, 4 years? I'll assume that your parents are generally lax with your sleep schedule then? o: That "one more episode" mindset is one of the primary reasons why I haven't been watching much anime recently. I have a difficult time with self-control when it comes to these kind of things, so I understand where you're coming from, ehehe.. I get that my parents care for my well-being, but sometimes homework and studying do need to be prioritized over sleep. Sleeping isn't going to help me take that test if I don't know the information well enough, haha. lol fixing my sleep schedule is a lot harder than I thought. Yesterday, or today rather, I found myself awake at 3am still studying for that calc quiz I was paranoid about. My plan was to get my butt into bed by 1am at the latest, but I guess that didn't work out too well. Thank you for the sentiment though! I think fitness buddies are best for sports like track since it's nice to have someone to take your mind off of the stress you're putting on your body when running. The whole idea of winter track is a strange concept to me. Neither running out in the cold nor running in the school's heating sound pleasant, so I'm not entirely sure what motivates them to want to take winter track. lol. Perhaps it's a sign that senioritis hasn't gotten the best of you yet? But I do agree; enjoying the remaining days of the school year instead of staying up so late isn't such a bad idea. Haha, you can call me a hypocrite since my sleep schedule is pretty messed up right now, but nevertheless, I hope everything went well for you today!

Breakup songs especially. They give me the creeps. I just like the sad melody and tune. lol wait, really? Granted a select few are decent, but most songs about relationships or breakups come off as whiny, and they never cease to get on my nerves after being repeated on the radio for the hundredth time. The only "depressing" songs I like are instrumentals--the ones that tend to carry a lot of emotion. (shout out to my boi Joe Hisaishi for being one of my favorite composers of all time) Here's a good example if you're wondering what I'm talking about: It has a few Howl's Moving Castle vibes (and it's a bit lesser known), but it's absolutely gorgeous--and "depressing" to an extent, I suppose. ...and here's another one. I have a huge list of them by the way. I had a bit of trouble deciding which ones to post here, lol. Still gotta love upbeat songs though.

lol, I suck at nicknames. All I can remember is naming a Garchomp Sharkeisha. .-. I'm just crossing my fingers that senior year will turn out a lot better, lol. That's still kinda crazy though. I'd feel much more comfortable settling down since I feel that it gives my life a sense of stability. I guess it's kinda nice to have a change in scenery once in a while. But...wow, I just can't wrap my mind around moving so often, haha. But the thing is, it's gotten to the point where I'm afraid to voice my opinions to my parents now. Anything I say can set them off, and next thing I know, a bunch of my stuff is confiscated, and I'm just sitting here like, "what just happened, I don't even.." I've learned to keep my mouth shut around them, but it's still frustrating how one of my only outlets is just venting on a Word document. I think that most of the adults believe that we don't have the capacity to understand the situation at hand. If you think about it, our generation is going to be running the country soon enough, so why is it so hard for them to listen our perspectives on things every once in a while?

ahaha.. sometimes I find myself sleeping at 2am then having to wake up at 6am sometimes I find myself sleeping at 5am then having to wake up at 6am I don't have a regular sleep schedule anymore, and sometimes I have to wake up even earlier for sectionals. It's partially my fault for forcing myself into this habit for the past few months, but I'm determined to break it soon. I'm a miserable wreck right now, and I don't think I've ever willingly wanted to stay up this late during school nights. I don't know how you manage to handle it so well, haha. It gets worse when my parents find out though. I'm always constantly paranoid that they'll wake up at some point in the middle of the night and catch me still doing homework and studying for tests because they'll force me into bed, regardless of what I'm doing. It does help to have a fitness buddy though! I've seen many people running through the hallways with friends after school during winter track season, and it seems to motivate them quite a bit. I also have a few friends who nag me to play tennis with them during the off-season, which also serves as a pretty good motivator. I can imagine that exercising alone might be somewhat difficult, but on the other hand, it allows you to work at your own pace--and possibly prevent overexertion?

I can't possibly be the only person who is reminded of Death Note every time I listen to this.

I have to wake up early tomorrow. But who needs sleep anyway. right. ... right..? Lack of motivation is usually a problem for me when it comes to these things. Staying fit for the sake of health isn't too bad, but it's just so much more enjoyable with you're only doing it for the fun of it all.

I can definitely relate. Freshman year was a mess for me, but sophomore year turned out a lot better. Junior year took a dip (possibly lower than freshman year), but I think that may no longer be the case anymore. It'll depend on a few factors in the upcoming future, but I'd rather not think about it, haha. Gosh, I can't imagine having such a mobile life. I like the idea of travelling to new places, but geez, I don't think I can handle having to constantly move between homes. But I'm glad things are working out for you so far! My school doesn't offer that kind of luxury, so we have to hunt down scholarships on our own. You're really fortunate to have that kind of opportunity at your school, so it's good that you're taking advantage of it! Scholarships may be the only way my parents would let me go out of state, but it's a bit too early to think about that at the moment. I'd rather focus on academics in the meantime, haha. I only have a few clothes I still wear from late middle school. The rest I just "borrow" from my sister's closet, lol. I know I'm still a kid, but it still ticks me off to no end when my parents dismiss my opinions without giving it a second thought. Another reason to look forward to college, I guess.

Exercise can feel effortless, but only when it's enjoyable. I absolutely love playing tennis, so this isn't an issue for me. I can't imagine myself exercising for the sake of just "staying fit" because it sounds like torture. nope, there's no way I'd sacrifice the food variety for diet. nope.

aw geez, that's insane. I don't think I've ever gone through serious depression (though there were times where I felt like useless trash for a while). I've also seen some of your posts about how often you move, which I probably wouldn't have handled well either. It's awesome how well off you seem to sound considering your current predicament. Best of wishes to you! Whoa, you already have a school that's offered you tuition? damn, lucky you! I still have clothes in my closet that are from fifth grade, haha. Of course I can't fit into them though. I suspect my parents will be digging through those after their "cleaning supplies" are beyond unusable. Donating clothes doesn't sound like a bad idea, but I have this premonition that my parents are going to get defensive if I mention the idea to them. They almost never take me seriously, and they usually just treat my opinions like they're coming from a three year old. Well, they are first generation immigrants, so I can't really blame them.

I understand the why. I just can't understand the how. I think exercise compensates for this though. I'm usually pretty energetic most of the time (when not sleep-deprived) since I play tennis weekly, lol. Gosh, I just can't stand the idea of a diet or a lifestyle that restricts me to eating only certain foods. Geez, these people must be insane. One does not simply dismiss food. One must experience food.

I know right? Those health nuts, I'm telling you, haha.

I still have a year and a half to go before I can revel in it all :c But yeah, I feel like I'm going to be disappointed after getting so hyped about it, lol senioritis, stahp. Oh, you already have your college decisions out? Does that mean you're a senior? if so, lucky you, haha. My parents want me to stay in-state just because of tuition costs even though I'm dying to get out of this monotonous torture. My parents either throw away my clothes or use them as rags. It makes me a bit heartbroken seeing a bit of my childhood getting all sullied like that. My mom sometimes donates blood, but hmm... I don't think I've ever seen my parents donate clothes before.

It's funny how everyone advocates how much healthier almond milk is compared to the real deal, lol. I never really trusted it, but even if it is true, regular milk > almond milk I've tried both with the same cereal before, and I can attest that regular milk is still better than almond milk.

Many of my older friends seem to be enjoying themselves a lot more in college, so who knows? I'm definitely looking forward to it. What seems most appealing to me right now is the freedom I'll get. Not just out of supervision, but in classes as well. just watch me be dead wrong. naw, it's because I've grown out of it years ago. My parents like to "recycle" clothing as cleaning supplies, lol

I think 2% is a perfect balance between whole and skim milk. But I guess I'll find out after trying 1% next time, haha. Almond milk is also good. It has this nice, creamy/viscous feel to it, but I still think good ol' classic milk is better. well, actually almond milk is only good by itself. it doesn't go very well with stuff like cereal, in my opinion.

lol, the high school struggle. I remember this one time when I was little (can't remember what grade), my mom was trying to force me into an orange sweater that I absolutely hated. It was actually an adorable little sweater, now that I look back on it. But my parents use it as a dust rag now sooooooo...............

lol, in my defense, I've never tried 1% before, but I'll give it a shot next time. skim is still better than whole in my opinion. but I still don't really like it. kinda sucks that my dad prefers whole milk above all else though. haha, what makes 1% so different from 2%?

<3 lol, I was actually thinking about incorporating that into my post, but it felt too irrelevant and I couldn't find a good way to reference the song other than through the "subtle" hint (that you managed to catch). so I guess I was successful to some extent, heh. those people probably haven't experienced the *magic* of headphones yet, haha. I don't own any pair of headphones. The ones I'm using come from my sister since she has an unbelievable number of them, lol. but yeah, definitely try it sometime! (preferably with songs you're not familiar with yet)

I don't like skim milk because it tastes too artificial. But I don't like whole milk either because it leaves a weird aftertaste in my mouth. I managed to find a good balance though thank goodness for 2%

I don't think I've ever seen you purposefully double post before... hmm, I think I'll call bs on this statement of yours, heh.

this might be why I can produce a semi-authentic Asian accent at will. thanks, dad.