Forever Lost

What's on my mind.... Hmm. I wish there were just extra days added in the week; days that didn't really count where you aren't expected to or required to do anything. I'd be taking one of those today. Everything seems surreal. It's seeming to take me too much time to establish what is reality and what is not. This usually means my dreams closely jive with reality. Today I'm trying to figure out what I was dreaming and what I wasn't. It makes things difficult to deal with somehow. It's difficult to concentrate. It's difficult to deal with things. However nothing has really happened. This concerns me. In two years, I'll be gone. I'll disappear from my younger sister's life - she'll hardly know me. My niece won't have a clue who I am, even though we get along so well right now. Do you know how scary it is to feel like soon you'll just disappear? It reminds me of a dream I had. I was dead, I knew I was. But for some reason I was given another day. I talked with everyone, but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to say that I was dead. That tomorrow I'd disappear forever, that they'd never see my face again. At one point in my dream, I asked J-man what would happen if I disappeared. He said "It wouldn't matter." I don't think he meant that he wouldn't care.. The way he said it sounded like "It wouldn't matter as long as all is well for you", but it still hurt. This dream scares me and shakes me. My scary dreams.. the ones that grip me and don't let me go... they come true, usually in a figurative way. So I wonder, will I disappear as such? Alongside this, people in general tick me off. Especially people who pull crap, blame others, and then deceive everyone. And after they do all this, they sit there and get adored. They sit there and act as though they have done nothing. There is no sincere apology from them. They act as though everyone should be honored that they have been graced with that person's presence. This makes me sick. It's these very people that blame me for their actions. Isn't it funny? But I guess it won't matter for a long amount of time. I'll disappear in two years. Lalala~ This is what be on my mind XD

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Yeah well... I'd have to hug her lots and squeal lots and flail lots and yeah.

LOOOOL!!! BUT IT'S A REAL-LIFE HAIBARA!!! YOU CAN'T STOP ME!!

XDDD I'll only die if I meet her and do that >.>''

I'd prolly treat her like a real-life Haibara and fangirl over her till she killed me XD

Fuufuufuu Love and hate AngelBeats! at the same time... Love it 'cause I love it and hate it 'cause my stupid 'friend' introduced me to it and it ended up accidentally predicting an outcome. Like he saw himself as a certain character, me as Yurippe, my friend as Yui, etc. It was all great fun till... stuff XD But I've been allowed to collaborate and be Yurippe's voice for a few random scene fandubs, but I don't think I'm very good at her XD Love the songs :3

Well, my amazing school work productivity has officially halted. Note to teacher: IF YOU DON'T HAVE IT IN THE FREAKING COURSE, DON'T EXPECT ME TO KNOW IT. Giving me a freaking 60 'cause you were looking for crap you didn't even teach. Telling everyone to go look it up online. How retarded. You know, I think I'd like to meet Grace sometime. That would be fun :3

I just read that.... It doesn't make aaanny sense does it. I apologize.. I'm officially going to sleep now before I do weirder things o.o;

I know :3 Pahahahhaahahha Don't mind me I'm sleepy. J-man had to deal with me in this state so many times it's not even funny. HAHAHA I think he was mad yes... Tuesday.. 'cause I kinda stopped trying to make it work as I laughed my butt off. I was so hungry.. and so tired.. thus became delusional.. and no one likes a delusional me :333 Wooww.. HI

I KILLED EM ALL?! How depresssiiiinngg

XDDD Ya'll be funnay

*stare* Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~ Wow. It's already 12:30... and duuuude I have to mow the lawn tomorrow ://// And hi. Again :3