Dear RZ,
You were always the awesome one. The one who made people look like fools without putting yourself in imminent danger of humiliation. Our conversations were fun, and you quickly became my favorite person among your crew.
But the three years happened.
Maybe it was the crushing guilt you felt when you wronged your best friend, even though you weren't at fault. Maybe it was the influence of your relationship with the one who was at fault for your best friend's fall (although you didn't know). Maybe it was you and your boyfriend refusing to take off your guises and understand each other.
Maybe they all contributed to your dwindling self esteem, but I can only speculate
It broke me, and him (one who really cares about you), to see you in this state. When everyone around you disappeared, it was a return to form for you, and I was happy to see you return back to your former state. You gave yourself and everyone else, a chance at righting the wrongs committed in the three years.
Now, I see you with her, your best friend.
She was the one who made everything okay again, but then I see her manipulating you.
You were the best of pals, but then she harmed several of your other friends. She cheated, She lied. That was why you broke off all contact with her. She knows you feel guilty about harming her, and she is using that to her advantage.
You were the smart one. The one who foresaw, almost with perfect clarity, everything that could happen. Why can't you see how she is using you?
I can only hope for the best, and the best means a return to the quirky, seer-like RZ.
~M