I am not forcing you to make friends. I am saying that you should leave a mark on people. I spent my middle school and nearly all my high school (I changed and went elsewhere I did find someone who didn't mind me) without making friends because of their so called "fakeness" but it turns out some actually had a change of heart to ask how I've been after the results were out and we had all graduated. Sure, they might prefer others over you and even if you are an outcast, a person pretty much can't discriminate enough its just two. If they have a mind then it can be changed. You don't have to go spilling secrets to be friends, just a mutual trust is enough to begin with and only time tells the rest. Your second statement pretty much is the solution for your first one, I'm just saying don't generalize the intentions of everyone who approaches you.
Why would you regret? You always learn. Complicating rarely helps. Those who try too hard to find happiness might just come across if they stop looking so much. As for knowing oneself, there are more ways than just isolating yourself. If I didn't know any better I'd say you want attention. That's not a bad thing, we all do. You'll never be an outcast at DCW. The people who hurt you have no right to judge you. What's your fault? Just being who you are? I think then a lot of us would be behind bars if that was a crime.
You were really judgemental of me when you joined here, what do I make of that statement now hmmm? I'm honestly lost. You just block me without giving me a chance and tune me when I do try for you :< I half expect you to just ignore the errors in the post and then roam the other threads like what I said here never existed.