Nah~ You don't have to apologised I always do stupid things... Like laugh to myself, talk to myself, laugh at the most weird times... people think Im crazy
I think it's cuz i had good utensils? O.o I used my sister's colour pencils... (I bought them for her so she ought to let me use it ) then I spent quite long at it... (about half a day drawing it and another half a day coloring it...)
But I still think it doesn't look very nice... The scanned version actually looked different from my drawing, which made it look nicer I must say... O.o I think probably we all always thought other people's works are often better that's why... It's just a mentality problem... I think you always draw well...