...Well I really haven't said anything in this thread.
Chelsea... *hugs* do you want to talk about it or would you rather just ignore the subject? I know it's been rough...
Don't. Don't hope to die. Death is just pretty much hitting a brick wall. The end. Sure, it may seem easier, you won't have to deal with the stress of living anymore, but then what? What do you get out of it? When you're gone, there's nothing else you can do. When you're dead, it's impossible to be happy. So what was the point of dying? When you're living, you have a chance to be happy, a chance to smile, a chance to hope. When you're dead, there's nothing.
And do you honestly think no one cares? By entering this community...we automatically care. There is always someone on this planet that cares about you, even if you can't see it coming through. Maybe the thought of death is more pleasurable when you imagine people mourning over you and regretting everything...but isn't it better to make them happy with your presence in life then guilty about your death?
Don't give up hope -- it's something that is so strong, much stronger than people believe it to be. Keep holding on and staring at those clouds, because sooner or later you'll see the silver lining.