My dreams still haunt me, so I went early this morning to my old tae kwon doe sensei (used to learn from him, but I eventually adapted to karate). He suggested to go all out on him, so I did. He deflected all my attacks and eventually I was left hanging by one foot upside down.
He told me, "공격 만 하네. 방어 도 있어야지." (tran. You only have offense. You should also have defense).
I left that day feeling relieved and pretty good.