Dear Anonymous,
Are you still wondering about my crying yesterday ? Please, just think that I was homesick, OK ? I beg you.
Maybe it will be better if you just know it that way. Don't ask me anymore.
How can I ever answer that I was actually crying about... you ?
Why are you being so kind to me ?
Please stop it ! I don't deserve it ! I can't take it anymore.
Up until now, I still cannot believe it. I still cannot find the true answer.
You proclaimed that I am your younger brother to your friends even though that was the first time we met, while my own sibling doesn't even want my existence.
You always ask if I have eaten, because you're afraid that I might have skipped my meal.
You willingly share your objects with me despite my denial, while my so called "best friend" took everything away from me.
Just by thinking that you gave me a whole family while my real one almost made me want to kill that I cannot hold my tears. Never in my life have I been allowed to dream of such treatment. And just by thinking that we'll forever depart when next summer comes that I sob even more. How can life be this cruel ?
Therefore, once again, please stop being so nice to me. I don't want to take advantage of your kindness anymore. And more importantly, I don't ever want ANYONE to earn a special place in my heart, because that will only make everything more painful. So if someday that we happen to meet again as enemies, I won't have to hesitate, I will do what I'll have to do.
I'll forever be your best roommate, but not your brother.
I hope you understand what I said. I'm also writing this to you with my teary eyes.
Signed, BD.