Forever Lost

I added more crap to mine. Yay. http://www.detectiveconanworld.com/wiki/User:ForeverLost

Hmm. I don't like wearing skirts or dresses - too uncomfortable. Eating expired donuts. Supposed to be reading. Fuzzy eyes. Sleepy. Don't wanna. Lazy. Disappointed. Mildly upset. Mildly annoyed. Really sick of my life's role. Really sick of siblings. These donuts taste funny. Hi. That's what's on my mind.

Cammy, you might want to see if there's any free/volunteer counselors nearby. I used to go to one until they left to go to another place. They're professionals but they're volunteering and they don't charge. I was able to go to them for awhile. I would suggest the school counselor, but I never went to my middle school and up counselors because they seemed too busy with everything to just sit and listen. My elementary counselor let me sit in her office all day one time and just cry and talk and do work.. but I doubt they do that in middle school and high school >.>;

I'm really glad you found your way here, too. Thank you *hugs* And what Mohorovicic said is also something you need to think about. (Although personally I think it's fine to talk about it to other people, emotional support is important..) If you can find some way of getting help, some way of getting free from abuse... it'd be your best choice. His words are better than mine though, since he knows what he's talking about. My mom lived in a really abusive household when she was younger... she survived through it until she was old enough and had a job and a safe place to go. I can't counsel you on what to do on that very well >.< Obviously everyone else here is willing to support you too, dear. I'm glad it meant something to you, really. Gambatte.

........................ *hugs you super tight* I honestly have no words that can be of any true help. The most I could offer is the fact that I did read all of that. I'll listen/read anytime again if something happens again. If you need someone to scream at, I'm right here. If you need someone to rant at, I'm right here. If you need someone to hear your opinion, listen to your voice, whether or not it's in text form, I'm right here. I don't know what it is to be physically abused. I do know, however, what it is to be mentally abused - many people around me especially when I was younger would do it all the time, including my father. I can only say that I understand how you feel for only a small part of it. Prove your freaking sister wrong. Go to that school you wanted to go to, enjoy it. Shove it in her face if you want to just by going there, just by being happy, just by making real friends there. Prove her lies wrong if only to yourself. I can see that it's intensely difficult, but if you can make those friends at the school you chose to go to a piece of the world where you can be away from people who are trying to hurt you, then it'd be for the best. I can only say that I wish to give you hope. The only honest and true hope that I can back up to give you is that I'll be here, and I won't turn on you. I won't let you go, and if you need someone to go to, I'll be here. I'm sure everyone else here will be too, but I'll speak for myself in all confidence. Never forget that your voice and your opinion, your thoughts, your existence, is still intact, is still important. Don't let go of it. Don't silence yourself, don't let go. Whatever you do, just don't let go. I don't advise yelling back (although I'm sure it'd be nice) simply because I don't want to advise something that would get you hurt. If no one else will listen to your opinion, your thoughts, recognize your existence, then I will, we will, here. I know it's not much, but until something works, something turns, something changes, I hope that it will be of some comfort. I've had many friends try to kill themselves. They came with scars on their necks and wrists. I'm telling you, you don't want to keep that up. You don't want to do it. I watched them, their hearts were scarred. It still kills me inside today. They fought hard against their very selves to stop. Don't inflict hurt onto yourself - you don't deserve any more abuse. Death is not the end. Nor is it the answer. It's okay, it's completely okay, to not to be able to end your life. If you ever feel that way, come talk to me. Send me a message if I'm offline. I don't want to leave you out there hurting and unheard, alright? You need anything, come tell me. Love ya, Cammy-chan. I really hope things start to turn out and get better.

DO IT I do it all the time. It's about time someone else does

I have a REALLY good hacking friend. But I wouldn't ask him a favor for something this trivial.. I need to call in those favors for more dire situations XD I put my mom to sleep reading this freaking long book I have to finish by tomorrow. It was funny. I was like "So.. you still awake?" "............" "Guess not. GOODNIGHT" "........." I'm gonna guess that she was sleeping. XD Best. Bedtime story. Ever.

If I started the same thing, there'd be like.. one or two creepers. And that's it. DON'T EVEN GIVE ME THAT CRAP *throws chex mix at kaichou* ... *eats another handful* :3 Me likes parties.

*joins the party* GOSH everyone is posting on this thing. Dude, kaichou, prime example of how popular you are :3 *eats chex mix and drinks soda* So, what's up peoples?

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