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O_o.;;; whatatataetaat WHHHHAAATT? happened? lol

I'm quoting that in my sig. Thank you Aeyra it really helped me a lot to realize something important that I've over looked. and I always do LOL, now I understand why a lot of stories have "love" themes in them... oh, and I forgot to write: after that week, I saw her mom O_o;; you have no idea how nervous I was.... of course you know how moms are like (especially Asian moms...)

This was supposed to be for fun since ppl got curious about IU's identity....

"Even worthless things has a value called priceless."

Finally have time to spare in DCW for more than 1 hours straight... ahh... this goodness.. I missed this....

If you received this link, I need your help... I am at loss, and I know you are one of the members who can help me (others as well, but I just can't remember who). I need help from other's opinion, And I know DCW is the only place where I can share this kind of thing. So on Valentine's I gave her a big surprise valentine gift... I didn't see her at all that day because she was busy... and I was late to class. At home I confessed online, I poured all of my heart and soul, and she said we will meet up the next day. When we met, she said she accepted my feelings, however she didn't feel the same way and couldn't return it. So it's pretty much a nice way of saying rejected, or different way of saying that she is thinking about it. I understood, and what else can I do? She seemed to bothered whenever I show up around her. I see her friends giggle, sometimes sneak away, and I also see her embarrassed and chase after her friends. Well, my first love, and first rejection. It hurts a lot, but someday it will heal... I still like love her; how can I resist this feeling that have been building up for 4 years? I ask too many questions to myself that I cannot solve just like how I cannot solve her feelings. Maybe the gift was too much, or maybe the relationship that was too little. But who knows? It can be both, it can be neither. Love isn't always about price, nor deep relationship. I can't give her up, even if she have no feelings about me, all I ask is a moment together for memories. So what should I do, no, what can I do? All I can do for now is say hi and bye, smile and wave. I don't think, no, I can't stop this feeling I have, and I know. I can feel myself blushing when I see her, I feel my dead heart start beating again. I want to say more than hi and bye, I want to express more than a smile and a wave. One time I tried to forget, but my heart didn't let me. Only pain flew out of my heart instead of my tears. I can't erase her from my memories, I just can't ignore her. How can I do so when my heart acts like a magnet? I felt emotionless since then, I smile and laugh, but it's not the same. I can feel my face turn dark, and my head feels heavy. The only time when I feel like myself again is when I see her notice me. I can smile effortlessly when she smiles. So I guess this is what it means by "she took my heart and soul."