May 15th, 2011 1:57PM
I hate that aho. I hate him so much, I wanna take a sword and plunge it into his stomach. Why? Cuz of the pain he caused me.
Empty promises. Saying things without the heart for it. Not caring for the other.
Our relationship was once HeiKaz, soon ConAi, and now it's become deadly. Gin x Sherry.
You have no idea how hurt I feel over him. It's driven me to the point of insanity and rage.
I can't help but feel trapped. My arms are shaking.
I hate him so much. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him!!!
Is shaking all over while thinking of your crush normal? Is it sane to compare a relationship to that of a deadly one?
I feel so...so traumatized. My heart is thumping and thumping and thumping.
It's my fault. I never should've liked him in the first place. It was a forbidden relationship from the start. It isn't right, and will never be. No wonder how everyone is scared of that thought. It's incorrect – this entire thing. It's gonna be my doom – this relationship. It will be. If anyone figures out how we are related like this, it's gonna be the end of me.
God help me!!!!
Why is my heart troubled over this? Why did I like him in the first place? Why was I so stupid to fall for him?
I'm shaking... I'm shaking all over
It's not natural to feel tormented. It's not.
They cannot figure it out. They cannot. This riddle can be solved, but I'd rather it not be. It'll be the death of me, like this.
I feel so evil. I feel like I deserve to go to hell. It isn't right. It'll never be.
Who will help me? Who will have the courage to help me? Who will get me to stop shaking like this? After all, who will care about me?
Uh... that was the journal post I was writing yesterday. I updated my status post, but no one replied to it so I deleted it.