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Well, before this guy I also had a special feeling for someone else (also a guy, of course), but at the time I was still in denial because my mind didn't want to think of it as genuine romantic affection rather than a brotherly kind of love, even though thinking back now it obviously was romantic love (but only a one-sided one on my part). The reason I was being in denial wasn't because I thought being homo was wrong, but before that I hadn't been able to genuinely fall for anyone so I didn't really trust my feelings at the time. Obviously this person must have had a very great impact on my life for such a change to happen. Also don't laugh if I sounded like a whiney baby, that was ages ago, I'm much more mature emotionally now... My current "target", well, let's just say that it's also a one-sided feeling, because 1. he's a straight and 2. he already had a girlfriend. I haven't told him of my feelings and don't have any intention to do that either, for obvious reasons. Even so, I can't seem to be able to remove his image from my head. I tried not to follow his Facebook for days but that didn't work because I can't stop thinking about him. It's like an unhealthy obsession, so to speak. (Not that I mind though, but it can be distracting at times.) It doesn't help that eventually I'll have to meet him soon because we have some projects to do together; I also always have this inferiority complex towards him (he is objectively better than me in many aspects), that's probably why I fell for him in the first place. But as things stand now, I won't make any move and just let things be. I don't want to end up being "the selfish third person" ruining someone's happiness for no good reason, especially when that's someone I care deeply about. I'm satisfied with the current situation. For many, love is when you have to take "ownership" of a person, both body and soul. But that is not my love. If the person I care for is feeling happy with whoever he chose, then that also makes me happy. After all, my view of true love is when you put someone's happiness above your own. And life has taught me that there are so many ways to take care of someone, without having to be in a relationship with them. So I want to express my love for him in my own way, without him knowing and without ruining the status quo. I don't care if I can't ever move on, I want to live with these feelings because they make me feel warm in tough times. Personal love is not wrong, only undermining someone's relationship is. As for being more open, I probably won't tell anyone anytime soon, at least not until I have a more stable relationship. So far, none of mine are mutual so there's just no point. I also don't think it's really necessary ATM. After all, having a love life is not the top priority of my life. I don't really mind if I can't ever find someone "right" for me. P/S: Wow, this ends up much longer than I thought. Sorry for the rambling

Adding on to everyone elses' answers, yes, but, I'm not sure Conan knew what Akai's disguise would look like at first. He knew Akai was living at Mokuba-sou; when the DB were discussing the fire and their friend, Haibara overheard Conan talking about the apartments under his breath and asked if Conan knew something about them since they were close to Agasa's. That said, when Conan first saw the suspects he wasn't immediately friendly to anyone. It wasn't until Okiya quoted Holmes that Conan suddenly warmed up to him. Even if Conan was 99% sure that Okiya was Akai, he probably planned to hang back until Akai gave him a clear sign so he could be 100% sure.

Ch. 18 http://drmuttonchops.deviantart.com/art/Detective-Conan-Alternate-Bourbon-Arc-Chapter-18-594071278 https://www.fanfiction.net/s/11228175/18/Alternate-Bourbon-Arc

Didn't notice that this poll has changed, and it seems that my personal orientations have also changed over time, so time to edit my votes. - Sexual orientation: Still picked Asexual because I'm still not into sexual relationship of any kind, regardless of genders, and don't plan to either. Nor do I feel sexually attracted to anyone even if I may have romantic feelings for them. - Romantic orientation: Asexual -> Homosexual. After many years without being able to love anyone (literally), I recently have romantic affection/obsession towards a guy I know IRL. And this is probably the only place where I can openly admit this lol.

Soliloquy, Christmas Edition (24.12.2015)

Dear Anonymous, Are you still wondering about my crying yesterday ? Please, just think that I was homesick, OK ? I beg you. Maybe it will be better if you just know it that way. Don't ask me anymore. How can I ever answer that I was actually crying about... you ? Why are you being so kind to me ? Please stop it ! I don't deserve it ! I can't take it anymore. Up until now, I still cannot believe it. I still cannot find the true answer. You proclaimed that I am your younger brother to your friends even though that was the first time we met, while my own sibling doesn't even want my existence. You always ask if I have eaten, because you're afraid that I might have skipped my meal. You willingly share your objects with me despite my denial, while my so called "best friend" took everything away from me. Just by thinking that you gave me a whole family while my real one almost made me want to kill that I cannot hold my tears. Never in my life have I been allowed to dream of such treatment. And just by thinking that we'll forever depart when next summer comes that I sob even more. How can life be this cruel ? Therefore, once again, please stop being so nice to me. I don't want to take advantage of your kindness anymore. And more importantly, I don't ever want ANYONE to earn a special place in my heart, because that will only make everything more painful. So if someday that we happen to meet again as enemies, I won't have to hesitate, I will do what I'll have to do. I'll forever be your best roommate, but not your brother. I hope you understand what I said. I'm also writing this to you with my teary eyes. Signed, BD.