Ran's wishes

[Miss Smiles 105]

Ran's wishes

Ran watched a little boy who ran around and about with his best friends, Ayumi, Genta and Mitsuhiko, they all were in the field playing soccer and he kicked ball to the goal before they had a chance, groaned but they create a racket while continued their game as they shouted at each other and shout turn into laughter. As Ran watched him play when she sat on the bench, with a smile looking at them on one bright day when the sun hiding behind the cloud, day wasn't cloudy; it was her favourite day she usually like to spend outside with usual routine but she had not attend karate session instead as she already make a call to her friends she wasn't coming.

'Conan! Pass the ball to me as fast as you could!' yelled Ayumi with excitement and smile lit on her face, waving her hand frantically to Conan as if she was indicating him to pass towards her.

Edogowa Conan was the name of boy who wear a spectacle, he swiftly ran forward and kicked in time and ball rolled to Ayumi, before it flew to score another goal. She smiling happily at him when she leap to clap hands.

Ran wondered as she watched at him and noticing his facial expression was the same as her best friend Shinichi Kudo, he was the person who likes to play soccer.

At the same moment she swore she noticed Shinichi's movement was the same, like Conan's kicking style on the field, she watched strangely when Conan was smiling at his friends before ran to catch the ball from Genta, dribbling the soccer ball away from Conan when he was running.

Two weeks ago she had met Shinichi and was still angry with him, after he leave her in the restaurant with Conan ran to meet her and find her face was brimming with tears, flowing down on her face, at the moment she realized he say differently when she heard from him: 'Shinichi will come back, as he promise.'

His words haunt inside her mind as memory replay in her brain, she has stick to her words she agree in the restaurant: 'I'm not his mother, why I have to wait for him to come back...' she said with a blush when she was eating her sundae and Conan was eating his sundae in his cup, his lips was stained with few drips of vanilla he was eating.

When she saw how Conan was eating his sundae,, she couldn't help smiling at him as she instinctively clean the stain away beside his lips.

'oof!' her cry of words jolt back her memory to reality when she was sitting on the bench, dropped her book from her hands but she didn't put her mind on novel she planned to read, her mind drifted away at the moment she pick up from her bag subconsciously as to distract her own thoughts from thinking of Shinichi.

'Ran-nee-chan, are you alright?' Conan asked anxiously, watching her with anxious eyes and bit his lip when he crawled up on the bench, his hand gently touched her head where the small bruise was formed as Ran winced in pain.

'Sorry, Ran! You're hurt! I'll go get the plaster-,' his words cut short with surprise when he felt his hand clasped in Ran's hand, she shook her head as she smiled when she spoke to ease his worry.

'I'm alright, it's a small bruise.'

She stroke Conan's hair before bending down to pick up her novel.

'Ran-nee-chan? You're sure you alright? Today you look distracted, has anyone put you down in the class?' he asked as his eyes filled with few questions he has when watched at her with concern.

'Yeah, who make you angry? Ran-nee-chan, you can hit person who try to bully you in the class!' Genta proposed as he stand beside him.

'Oh, Genta! It's no one bully me, don't worry about me, I was thinking... thinking of my friend who was working. I miss my friend; he's my good friend who likes to create deduction when he's working.'

'Ah, is it Shinichi-niisan? The tall guy who walked with you when we first met him at the pavement and you both are walking to school, on that day?' asked Ayumi.

'Yeah, that's him,' Ran nodded to affirm her answer. Conan looked at her curiously.

'He's the guy I was thinking earlier,' Ran said with a smile. Three children sighed with relief as Haibara observing Conan.

'Why are you looking at me like that?' he asked, noticed her scrutinizing face.

'Nothing bothers me...' she answered after leave a pause of silence hanging in the air a moment, before she went back to the field.

'Haibara!' Conan exclaimed and followed her to find out answer.

'We're happy and glad to hear you're alright. For a moment, we thought you're going to cry soon! I believe he will return to you one day,' Mitsuhiko said, nodded.

'Thank you Mitsuhiko,' Ran said gratefully. 'I'll be here when you need me. You both can go off and play.'

'Okay! If you're bored, you can watch us play! Cheer for us-,' he pointed to himself and Genta 'win this game!'

'Alright!' Ran said cheerfully, and noticed Conan noticed her with different expression she couldn't understand. His face look at her with sad look, she noticed his face suddenly filled with mature eyebrow lines edged together, they twitched as he glance at her before turning himself around.

What's secret he's holding from me? Did Shinichi ask him not to tell? Ran pondered as she watched their soccer game resume. If Conan has his secret, but I'm sure he won't say...

Her mind remembered a scene she has saw before, she absentmindedly rubbed her face as it was memorable feeling left on her face. A feeling Conan left on her on the day when they were on holiday trip and he left an impression on her the moment he pressed a cold drink on her face, reminded her of Shinichi's greeting.

Later she sensed a new form of thoughts subconsciously entered her head. She remembered a familiar scene she could understand of Conan.

'I'm Kamen Yaiba! 'he said when he steered himself around the floor, earned school girl student's attention when they giggled and found him as an adorable child. 'He's cute!'

That scene faded from her head as she looked at her fingers with interest, her smile melt into sad smile as she ponder what secret Shinichi want Conan to keep to himself.

Shinichi, if you can say what bothers you, I'm gladly to listen when you're ready, Ran thought. Do you know how much I miss you? Is this feeling what it's like to be in love..? If you can show up, I'm happy and blessed to see you around. I miss you.

'Ran-nee-chan! I won the game!' Conan yelled in triumph as he ran forward next to Ran's side. Conan always be there for me, Ran smiling as she thought of him, I don't know what's life without Conan but I guess my days will be normal around with dad by my side.

'I'm sure he will come back!' Conan looked at her with innocent eyes and watched her smile again.

'I hold on to his words if he does, and I make sure to ask why he keeps me waiting!' she declared, and decided to pull herself together with final thoughts in her mind before asking all children to tag along with her, she planned to give them a treat of candy bags.

Some day, I can live to hear with pain if he's willing to tell, if I must to struggle and understand, but I won't feel like a prisoner and I'll accept the truth what it will be.

[Cindy-Chen 82]

I love this story....so sad...