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A komodo dragon then.

Mark!

He's overwhelmed by it.

You're welcome. Figure it out. You have the brains and with a little luck and a little work, you'll have the resources. Rome wasn't built in a day. Bye all of you! I may or may not be back.

Then try by yourself to piece it together. I would stay longer, but I need to get to work. Good luck, Chelsea.

They may not know, but they can help. Why not? Parents love their children, even if it may not seem so.

You see, that's the hard part for adopted kids. They don't know where they've come from, and in essence, they feel lost sometimes. They're in the middle, unsure where they started, unsure where they'll end up. It means you've started on a rock foundation. Go and try. Ask your parents. I'm sure they're willing to help.

When there's a will, there's a way. You don't have to break it to your parents immediately. I don't think they'll be hurt. I think your parents are smart and kind people to take in a child, and they'll understand what you need and why you feel that way. Rather, I think they'll support you. They are truly your starting point. If you want, give it some consideration. Lay it to rest. But if it is constantly bothering you, you may want to think about it.

Nice.

Ok. If that's what you want, go for it. Start doing research. Make that a part of your life, something to look forward to. Make it a project. But...if you find them, don't expect your biological parents to be perfect. They probably had a reason to have someone adopt you. Maybe it was good, maybe it was selfish. However, if this is something you really want to do, I'll support you.

<3 the first one.

Look, Chelsea. I know it's tough. I know you feel a million things are going wrong. I know you feel there's no damn way for you to get out of it and find peace. I get how you feel. You're not happy, because it seems like everyone is trying to take your happiness away. Everything that matters to you, manga, anime, DCW, writing...it's falling apart. You don't have something to hold onto because none of it seems to be lasting. I can't play life for you. You have to do it yourself. However, I have a tip. Give yourself a break. My friend would meditate. Take a few breaths. Think about everything you've gone through. Pour it out. Allow your emotions to show through. Then, compose yourself. Take a drink. Listen to some music. At this point, think about how you've been blessed. Smile. Then...reach out. I find other people's happiness is contagious, especially if it's something they're honestly grateful for. Look into everyone else, your friends, your enemies. Try thinking of life from their point of view. Heck, let your imagination run wild. Why are they treating you that way? What kind of situation are they in at home? A lot of people act certain ways because they're desperately trying to forget about themselves.

How surprising, coming from BD.

Who says you need to express them? Sometimes you know how you feel but you can't write them down. You can't put feelings on paper -- at least not 100% of it. I'm not going to go into my extremely religious/Christian rant, so I'll take a different route. Everyone needs someone to listen. For some, it may be their parents. For others, it may be friends. For people like me who are unwilling to share, we do it with God. The truth is, no matter how much you deny it, you want someone to love you. To appreciate who you are. To accept you as you are. To listen. Everyone is this way. You'll hear people say, "I don't care about love. I don't want love. It's just pain." In truth, it's rejection, guilt, breakups, and everything that goes wrong that is pain. Love itself is what heals it. As for hope, it comes easily to some and not so much to others. Hope means telling yourself that things could be worse. You can't find a silver lining without having to face the clouds. You can't give up on hope because subconsciously it will always be there, even when you can't see it. Dreams can move mountains and if you have faith, if you keep hoping, if you keep working at it, you can stand strong even when the sky is falling. ...I'm so quoting from a song. Oh well.

Meh, I rant so much.

I think it's this. You don't know what you want in life. You don't think your life has a purpose. You're wandering aimlessly. Anime and manga take you out of this world and into someone else's problems, someone else's life. You want escape. Isn't that true? But let me tell you one thing. No matter how much you try to escape, you will always end up coming back. And the more you escape, the more you'll find you're unhappy when you're away from that saving grace. The more you try to run the more you'll find yourself ending up at the start. The more you try to hide the more often you'll be found. You won't ever feel truly happy if you don't face your problems and they multiply when you're not battling with them. So don't lose hope. Without hope, you have no reason to continue on. It's not easy. I used to be the exact same way. In some ways, I still am. No matter how much of a dreamer you are, you've got to keep in touch with reality lest you lose yourself. You'll be troubled, you'll struggle, you'll wonder why you're doing it. But if you don't have an ultimate purpose in mind, you won't get anywhere because you won't be going anywhere. If you don't know your aim, you're heading nowhere. No it's not. EDIT: I believe I need to rant a little more. <3 Look. They're having problems. But the truth is, to you, your problems are REAL. Why? Because they're happening to YOU. It's human nature to be that way. No one feels their life is perfect, even when from outside it may seem so.

*laughs* I'm sorry, it's funny!

Yeah? What happened with it? *hugs* Don't. Focus on the good things in life. You have a home. A family. Friends, even if they aren't the best. Us. A passion. A skill with writing. A way with words. Think about all of the blessings you've received in life. Then think about those who are lost. Those who are homeless. Those who can't remember. Those who have never learned to read. :V You just thought, didn't you?

<3 XDXDXD

Did something bad happen? You seem down.

You do, but you're always lurking. ;____________; D: *chases* *finds* *hugs*

*facepalms* What an optimistic way of putting it. "Anyone who thinks puts some part of the world in jeopardy."

I wish Mark stopped having nightmares.