*raises eyebrow*
Why are you talking to us about this? Even if we can comfort you, we cannot make your situation any better. Get help. You need it. Abuse is not something to be taken lightly. You let it go, you'll die in its grasp. And I know. A few friends committed suicide because of abuse + other factors.
Sorry if I was a tad harsh and lecturing then, it's my nature.
After reading this, you aren't just my rival, I note. You are a fellow comrade that shares my scar. Your story reminds me of mine.
Stay strong.